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The Truth of Stillness

The Truth of Stillness

This morning I woke up with an overcast of depression. Really, I suppose, it sat in last night, but I wasn’t willing to admit it. I just thought I was really tired. It seems to me that waves of depression just hit me out of nowhere, although I am sure this is not the case. One minute things are great and the next I feel uninspired, unmotivated,unsatisfied and ungrateful. Really, I think a depressive overcast is a temporary malfunction of perception–an inability to recenter oneself.

So what do you do when the overcast strikes? Somehow wallowing on the couch or in bed doesn’t make it any better, although my mind guesses it just might. Reading a book, cleaning the house or working on a project doesn’t hold any more appeal. I’m stuck. Everything seems askew. Nothing seems right. My mind grasps at straws probably because it is the very thing that is causing the problem. I suppose the dilemma of depression is that you can’t solve it with the very thing that caused it. Maybe that’s why depression feels so directionless. My mind frantically searches for a solution continuing to perpetuate the disruption of its own domain.

Stillness. Quiteness of heart. The heart can quite the mind, but the mind cannot quite the heart. I need to find a different doorway thru which to escape the gloom and this doorway of the heart holds promise. Even if it doesn’t work, anything has got to be better than being locked in the gerbil-wheel of my mind. Caution: we can manage the image of stillness, yet still not be still. A mockery of stillness can very cleverly mimic genuine stillness and from the outside, they both look the same. On the inside, though, one offers no relief, while the other soothes the mania like balm on a wound. Stillness has nothing to do with what is external to me and everything to do with my inside neighborhood. Stillness is the place we go to reclaim our power–that personal power that ables us get recentered to life once again. Stillness is not quiteness, although quiteness can be found in stillness. Stillness is not rest and it’s pursuit is certainly not an excuse for laziness under the guise of rest. Stillness is not a project. Stillness just is. Stillness is all around us, always. We just have to tune the beacon of our heart in its direction. We must be willing to accept the grace of its healing gift.

“Be still and know that I am God”, we are told. Yet in seeking stillness with deliberate purpose, we feed the very problem itself. Reaching stillness, as I discovered this morning, is as simple as acceptance. Accept the stillness. Choose the stillness–over any other thing. The only conscious act is the act of choosing. Choose stillness and the healing begins. It begins from the inside out. Stillness can be had anywhere, anytime with a simple election. The election of choice. At a time when it feels like we have no choices and we are bound in a our own prison, election of choice doesn’t seem within grasp. Yet we already know that depression is the manufacturer of illusion. We already know that our feelings are not always facts. Now we know that the feeling of no choices does not constitute the truth of no choices.

Bask in Reverence

Bask in Reverence

I read today, in one of my morning meditations, about Reverence and found what it said to be worth sharing. Reverence is not something that, prior to today, I have spent alot of time thinking about, but it is something I experience quite frequently. It was said that

Reverence is that altered state of consciousness when you feel awe and wonder because you know you are in the presence of the Spirit. Reverence enwraps you in perfect peace because there is not past nor future, only the present moment.

The reading goes on to say “look for the sacred in the ordinary with a grateful heart”. So today, just for today, I think I will do just that.

Happiness is a Choice

Happiness is a Choice

Just for Today…I will be happy. This assumes to be true what Abraham Lincoln said, that “Most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be.”

I read this today and thought to myself that implies that happiness is a choice. When this idea of happiness being a choice was first brought to my attention several years ago, that conflicted so strongly with my belief system, I assumed it must be a lie. But the more I thought about that as a possibility, the more I thought “Wouldn’t that be nice”. And still yet, the more I thought about it some more, I thought “Maybe they know something I don’t”. So, very slowly, my ideas about happiness began to be riddled full of holes and over time, I began to realize that it was MY closely held belief about happiness that was the lie!

Today, I know that happiness is, in fact, a choice. But having a choice implies that I must choose it, consciously select something and sometimes I just plain forget that I have to make the choice to be happy. I passively backslide into old thinking patterns that tell me my happiness is determined by what is going on around me. What a powerless way to live! I don’t have much power over other people or outcomes, but I do have power over me. And I most definitely have the power to choose to be happy.

So then, I wonder, what action does one take to choose to be happy? Well, for me, sometimes it means setting a boundary or saying “No”. Sometimes, it means not starting a conversation with someone just to make a point that they’re wrong. Sometimes, it means having the discipline to do what needs to be done, so I am free to do what I want to do. Sometimes, it means asking for what I want and surrendering the answer to whomever I may be asking. Sometimes, choosing happy means alot of things, but always, choosing happiness means regardless of what is going on–good or bad–that I be intensely present.

Choosing happiness is exercising my faith muscle that everything has always been exactly as it should be and will always be exactly as it is supposed to be. If I believe that, then there is absolutely no reason to choose anything other than to be happy.