Monthly Archives: April 2011

Meltdown’s Make Butterflies

Meltdown’s Make Butterflies

So I had a meltdown on Tuesday. I’ll spare you details except this one tiny, ugly part that might be worth sharing. And not because I want to tell you this, but because I have the nudge that sharing at this level of vulnerability honors the authenticity in me; and I know that when I am authentic, that is what opens the way for you to relate; and because, really, to not share this one tiny, ugly detail, well it would most likely just make the rest of this blog post something similar to Charlie Brown “teacher-speak”—“WaaRah, WaaRah, Waa….”.

Soooo, the ugly little detail…….I threw up months and months of suppressed anxiety, worry and stress….literally. My body convulsed and heaved all thru the night on Wednesday puking up the poison of my stabled headless horsemen; you know those ones: terror, bewilderment, frustration and despair.

Once I reached the end of my rope and gave into the long overdue and necessary “becoming a glob”, my metamorphosis began in that same instant, even though that’s only clear to me in hindsight. I had the warning signs of its commencing, but I didn’t know how to interpret them. So as my body was wringing itself clean of emotional poisons it could no longer stand, I was completely powerless to stop it. It had my full participation, but certainly not my permission! And yet, the cleansing could not have taken place any other way. Apparently, I’m hard-headed!

One thing I can say that was vitally important to my meltdown, cleansing and metamorphosis was being surrounded by safe people around whom it was ok to behave badly….to use foul language, to be unreasonable, to beat myself up, to play the victim, make ridiculous requests, be rude and otherwise just act plain insane; and they would still love me anyway.

Somewhere along the route of this lifetime, I learned that people chose to love and support me based on what I brought to the table and how I acted. Bring alot to the table; let’s get it on! Behave badly; see ya! Is it really a wonder(ment) that our ‘problems’ are of our own making? And aren’t our ‘problems’ really our greatest opportunities? A dear friend of mine says “God gives us brilliant opportunities disguised as impossible situations.” Of course they feel impossible when we’re right in the middle of them, only to be clear as crystal later.

Aren’t we all living to “tell the tale”, so to speak….to move thru the experience, infuse it into our soul, harness the lesson as another treasure in our chests and be poised and ready to share the essence of our authentic lives to relate to another, or another to us? Relating and Relationships….isn’t this the space of life where the fruit is the sweetest? And aren’t meltdown’s how we learn to become butterfly’s?

Thoughts on Creativity and Success

Thoughts on Creativity and Success

“Presentation is about the transfer of emotion.” -Seth Godin, Author of “The Purple Cow” and a ton of other books

“Idling or doing nothing is important. Most of us are obsessed with getting things done. We’re afraid to be unproductive. And yet, the big ideas often come to you during your periods of ‘laziness’, during those episodes of ‘wasting time’.” -Brenda Ueland, Author of “If You Want to Write”

“To many business people, design is something you spread on the surface, like icing on a cake. It’s nice, but not mission-critical. That is not design, but rather ‘decoration’. Design starts at the beginning, not at the end; it’s not an afterthought.” -Garr Reynolds, Author or “Presentation Zen”

“It’s going to be a harder road than you thought, and short-cutting, half-assing, and second-guessing will only hurt [you in the end].” -Loren Weisman, Author of “The Artist’s Guide to Success in the Music Business”

Window Into My Life…April 4, 2011

Window Into My Life…April 4, 2011

I am in an introspective window of pushing thru some barriers that have been holding me back. I find myself imposing the constraint of essential silence, sitting quitely and calmly with myself; honoring a journal of stream-of-consciousness writing when I feel the words and thoughts pushing up thru the soil of my soul; limiting my inputs to only those that are helpful and applicable for my present state of purpose; and lining all of this with frequent prayer.