Being detached from the intended placement of our creativity allows us the freedom to engage the process—to create crap if we need to—as a means of burning thru to the good stuff. Embrace the process for the sake of expressing our insides, instead of being lured by the dreams of our mind about what it could become.
If you have peace of mind, when you meet with problems and difficulties, they won’t disturb your inner peace. You’ll be able to employ your human intelligence more effectively. But, if your mental state is disturbed-full of emotion-it is very difficult to cope with problems because the mind that is full of emotion is biased-unable to see reality-so whatever you do will be unrealistic and naturally fail. -Dalai Lama
Of course, most of us recognize this as a commonly referenced passage of the Bible, specifically a quote from Jesus. The Bible connoisseurs among us know the passage is John 14:6 and will be quick to point out that the rest of the quote is “No one comes to the Father except through me”, so let me go ahead and make that acknowledgement before sharing what’s on my heart.
I’ve recently had some very interesting wonderments about this statement. I spent a great many years with a certain disdain for organized religion. While I certainly have times marked with good memories while participating in church and related activities, deep down I was plagued with bothersome feelings for which I could not quite formulate words. For years, I disguised these feelings as an intellectual curiosity, under the guise of “seeking to understand”. I thought I had to understand it with my head before I could believe it in my heart. Understanding was the cause and belief was the effect.
As I meandered along my own personal journey of discovering what a connection to God actually felt like, I also started to discover the source of my previous disdain. And this quote from Jesus lay at the core of it. As I’ve grown in my relationship with God, I eventually came to put words to those previously indescribable, bothersome feelings–this inner observation that the purveyors of religion believed they were in sole possession of the Truth.
So herein lies my wonderment: Is is possible that what Jesus meant by this statement was that he, in his essence, was his own way; his own truth; and his own life–that his source for the peace, prosperity and goodness of life was the God-source that laid within him? And is it possible that what he was offering with this quote was that the same was true for all of us? That we all are born in the eyes of God and thus all have an innate source of God within our being; one that we can harness as our own personal Source of God to help us find our way, our truth and ultimately learn how to live our life in service to that authority within us?
I have recently been aware that God is working something out inside of me and I am at peace with it-Sometimes.
For 10 days now–or maybe more; I don’t seem to have had much concept of the passage of time–I can tell that I’ve been in a state of internal chaos. All sorts of random, and sometimes conflicting, thoughts and ideas and languages and dreams and words and conversations and pictures have taken up residence in my head and I am powerless to change it. And I’m not sure if I want to change it! That’s the craziness of it all!
It’s like observing the observer. Like waiting on an oak tree to mature or beer to ferment. It seems all pointless and yet I know it’s not. Something is happening even if I can’t see it. I know this feeling of chaos is all by divine design and I know that the chaos theory still produces results even in spite of the chaos. So I am in acceptance at the realization that God is working something out in me and I am willing to let Him. I’ve learned that willingness is the key that can unlock many doors that otherwise would remain closed and even though none of these thoughts in my head make a lick of sense, nor can I piece them together into anything remotely palatable; I am willing.
What else can I do? When I contemplate my choices rationally, I can either choose to accept the circumstances and believe something that makes me feel peaceful about it like “God is working something out inside of me” or I can fight to the bitter end, whenever that may be, and neglect living life in the meantime for being so distracted by the fight; and then end up with all sorts of regrets and, quite probably, amends to make–all for lack of presence at the time of mind. Yuk! I’d rather take the easier softer way, even if I’m wrong. Besides, ‘right’ is only the willingness to risk being ‘wrong’. Whoever made such a big whoop about being right all the time, anyway? Would I rather be right or be happy?
As puzzling as this window in my life feels at the moment and as much as my mind wants to get ahold it and figure it all out RIGHT NOW, I am content to let it, whatever ‘it’ is, work itself out. I recognize that I may just be the vessel for ‘it’ coming to life in my conscious awareness, most likely in the form of some kind of grand realization, new self-awareness or creative masterpiece that will alter the course of my life, hopefully in amazingly unimaginable good ways! No one ever said that periods of deep introspection and chaos don’t create our everyday life’s work. I suspect they are precisely the anvil upon which our lives are molded into shape!